What's Wrong With Me (part 1)

Welcome back to the blog.

Anyway, there's a couple topics that I wanted to write about, and I did start one blog about my academic situation, but I quickly realized that anyone who I haven't had serious, soul-baring conversations with (so, in other words, ANYONE) can't really understand where I'm coming from. Because the place that I'm coming from is a place called mild insanity. A specific form of mild insanity called "multiple personality disorder."

I don't have multiple personality disorder in the traditional sense. I don't have a one-personality-at-a-time limit. Instead, I have five separate people co-habiting my body all at the same time, four of whom I've known about for a while, one who just recently became his own guy. Depending on the situation, they're there in different concentrations, but they're always there at least in part, trying to steer me toward certain decisions. Would you like to meet them? Too bad, you're going to anyway.

Bachelor No. 1: Nate.

Nate is a quiet, bookish nerd...the classic antisocial butterfly. He enjoys writing, reading, drawing, music, film, puzzles and games, and really really REALLY hates everything else. Nate is no good in social situations, gets really uncomfortable, even around people he knows, and has basically no control over his bodily movements, leading him away from sports and parties, and toward any situation where he can be sitting alone. While this may seem like a snooze-fest, Nate's brain is anything but boring. His mind is constantly racing, full of previously acquired information, offbeat ideas, novel concepts, and snippets of dialogue. Nate really wants to go into creative writing at the university, because it's something he's actually really good at. His main problem is writer's block, which wouldn't be such a problem, but it's the other four dudes doing the blocking, so this happens quite a bit. You'd never know it from talking to him, but Nate's a friggin' genius. He's writing most of this blog, for instance. And he's the one that figured out that there are five of us rattling around in here.

2: Nathan

Nathan is a charismatic, confident, people person...who can occasionally be a bit of an a-hole. He loves to be the center of attention. Nathan steals all the jokes Nate has spent hours writing...and whenever words leave Nathan's mouth, they turn to gold. He can talk himself out of any situation, he can tell a story like you wouldn't believe, and he'd be able to wrap any chick around his little finger with words alone if the other four guys could stop distracting him, which they never will. Nathan is alarmingly direct. He never lies...NEVER...he wants to gain your unflinching trust, because someday he might have to tell a lie, and when that day comes he wants you to buy it wholeheartedly. Nathan would make an excellent politician, but that doesn't interest him. Instead, Nathan could see himself being a lawyer, but his real passion is the theatre. He excels at being in the spotlight, and acting is the best way to do that. He'd be willing to go back to school
for drama, then pursue it on the East or West coast. The problem with that plan is that Libby totally wrecked his body, Nate fills him with self-doubt, Nathaniel worries about the ethics of an acting career, and Amber is always in love with someone in town. More about the other three personalities soon---this is getting to be kind of a long post.

Plus, Nate knows cliffhangers can be a benefit, and Nathan loves the dramaticness of it all.